April 17, 2016 - Looking Back "She's Back!"

She's here! She's RED and she's all grown up. She had such a great time and hasn't stopped chattering. What a great experience. 
Malakai - "Ginny!!!! Come give me a hug. Let me see your beautiful face. I missed you and love you soooo much!!" This warms my heart. 

April 14, 2016 - Looking Back "Grade 9 Sailing Trip for Ginny

Just dropped this Gem off at the airport. 1st flight alone, and 4 days of sailing adventures ahead.

Time

There is something about this picture that keeps bringing me back to it.  I could probably stare at it for hours.  Seeing my oldest son sitting on that chair with broad shoulders ... When did this happen?

I don't have to be facing him to know that he is nervous.  So many thoughts come to my mind as I soak in everything this photo is saying to me.

Look how far we have come!

The little tender boy who was always so full of fear and anxiety has grown into a man.  As I took his hands in mine yesterday, he thought I was nuts and awkwardly laughed at me.  I told him how proud I was of him.  I probably haven't said it as much as I should.  Thoughts of us being hard on him pick away at my soul.  We are hard on him!  We have always wanted the best for him. Raising kids is not an easy task.  Raising first borns who are strong willed, and challenged by learning blocks can be even more difficult, but we are doing it.  For 12 years we have pulled ourselves through hurdle after hurdle.  This young man has overcome so many obstacles.  Every time he felt fear, anger, frustration, and discouragement, we felt it with him.  every time he tried to give up, we reminded him of his worth.  We fought hard for him, reminding him that even though he felt like throwing in the towel, we were not.  Even though teachers told us that he wouldn't graduate, we reminded him that he could!  We were not going to give up on him as easily as he was going to give up on himself.

Look at the man he has become!    

Even now, at the age of 18, I can still hear the same tone that he had in his voice when he was 5 ... The way he talks to his siblings ... His laugh.  He may act strong in situations where he needs to be but deep down his heart is still as tender as it was when he was little.  He has felt the sting of grief, experienced the aftermath of a harsh insult, yet he is strong and confident.  He is finding himself.  He has gone from the shy kid who had difficulties in social settings to dancing and acting like a clown on social media.  Every day I am amazed at how he is maturing and adjusting to "life".

We are so proud of the man he is and the man he is becoming.

"What if I Fall? Oh, but my son, what if you Fly?"

"Be weird.  Be Random.  Be who you are.  Because you never know who would love the person you hide." ~ C.S Lewis

April 10, 2015 - Looking back "We are Nuts but we love each other".

Ran across this pic in search of another today. Love that in one of our darkest moments we all managed to find laughter.  We are all nuts but we love each other. 

April 10, 2016 Looking Back "Big Mac"

We never go to McDonalds .... Ever! Malakai decided he wanted a happy meal for lunch. This is what he got. A TINY thing of fries and some pink glasses. 

April 3 - 2014 - Looking Back (Dad's Funeral)

A time in our lives that was so difficult but treasured at the same time. Love being part of a big family.

What a busy week filled with many tasks and so many emotions. The last of our crew left for home this morning leaving only Aunt Penny, who fly's out on Saturday. Amongst the tears we had a lot of laughs with our head count ranging from a minimum of 10 and a maximum of 27 (of course I was not able to take pics of the 27) Poor Ginny hasn't even woken up yet.